I open google news and the media fills up my screen with faces of hardship and tragedy all over the world.  My heart goes out especially to all affected by Japan's earthquake/tsunami, the scientists and engineers cooling off the nuclear power plants and last but not least, those fighting for their rights and freedom in the Arab nations.  

I just want to share this tweet by Shabadaba-O, a japanese entertainer:

@shabadaba_o: 今日被災者に電話ｲﾝﾀﾋﾞｭｰした。家を無くした４０代の女性が言った。「私達は他人の幸せや喜びをねたむほど落ちぶれてはいない。皆さんどうぞ我慢せ ず楽しい時は笑い嬉しい時は喜んでください。私達も一日も早く皆さんに追いつきます」俺は涙をこらえ笑顔でエールを送った。

Translation: "Today, I phone interviewed an earthquake victim, a 40 year old woman who lost her home from the tsunami, and she said, 'We do not feel contempt for the people unaffected by the tragedy nor do we intent on bringing down others' happiness because we are the victims of tsunami.  Please don't hesitate to laugh or smile if something makes you happy.  We will catch up with everyone soon.' I fought back my tears and wished her best of luck"

YES. No more fears, scares and potassium iodide!!!
Live and laugh!!!

"We are focusing on the small details and hiding the misery in the world. Look at the smoker and we miss global warming, war, and the crap we eat--not the bad guys but smoking. I smoke and they talk about cancer, I eat and they talk about cholesterol, I make love, it's AIDS. Before AIDS and cholesterol and cancer there's the pleasure of making love and eating and smoking. I have to die someday, so if the thing that gave me pleasure all of my life kills me instead of me going under a truck, that's fine. Besides, why should I live so that when I die I give fresh meat to the worms? I hope that I am rotted and they don't want to eat me. F@#$ck the worms."
— Marjane from Persepolis

almost half a year since my last update.. these days my time is spent thinking about or doing work... I even dream about it and it drives me crazy.
I'm thinking about reviving my design hobby. I realized that for quite sometime now I've been telling people I like doing computer graphics design and I haven't put time and effort to build a portfolio. So I've been working on putting together a website. In that process, I found deep down in my harddrive, old projects I've worked on. Above collage shows snippitz of a few of them. For those of you who used to visit my website/blog, you might recognize some.. yeah hella old..!

I want to work on something fArtsy, otherwise at this rate my right brain will perish. ararghargharg. ok im going to sleep now.

uniformity is undesirable.

imperfections allow room for growth.

so said Kenko and apparently ancient Chinese philosophers
Too often, I set a mental to-do list that I never get around to complete it all.

Right now, I want to beat my brain up for never finishing my old to-do list....
why didn't I do this,
why didn't I do that.
Then.
I could have.
done this.
did that.

but there will always be imperfections.
if i had done all that, I would most likely see another problem to work on.

The best way to deal with it all is see that I am always making progress.
I'm always getting better.

THINK POSITIVE!!!!! RAGH.